TODO – describe why this exists.
One early note – all the weirdformatting changes is because of web software interpeting my stuff as.. not what I meant.
I shouldn’t care about that as much as it took the effort to write that.

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Should start a diary of being stoned

• less paranoia about writing shit
• figure out proper dosage/timing

26/3 – puff at 21:30 – very-messy at 23:00

When watching stuff – I think “how dumb can straight people be to take this seriously?”
I think I’m missing all nuance when stoned, when it is’nt even nuance to straight ppl – just obvious shit

• making judgement of everything else fucked up

But logical scenes – watch, write stoned refuttal, rewatch,
figure out some seemingly clumsy explanation as to how it actually works, delete original observation.
2025-03-30 – sure that a sequence of events din’t make sense, eventually figured it out
– doesn’t do it justice

White Lotus – reading too much into everything? Are the actors really as good as I’m feeling?
– also symbology?
– or not enough? Am I missing everything which would help later?

List of stuff I think doesn’t make sense when stoned, for review:

• Hitman Agent 47 – 13:13..13:14

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Attempts at micro-dosing:

2025-04-20 – quarter-gummies at ~ 13:30, 15:30, 17:30 – pretty messed up at 20:00. Many beers but.

White Lotus
S03E05 – 42:30- fucked up

The Detour S03E09 – 03:00 – weird? 11:00 – weird. 12:00 – is carrying the dead body supposed to be funny?

• Rewatch when blazed – kinda odd, but not sure I find it odd in the same way. The whole carrying dead body thing is still weird.

I think when I read back this stuff when next stoned, I then go back and edit it, and end up removing all of that/this

• should be reviewed
• pretty sure I’ve already done that, and deleted a heap of shit which should have been reviewed
• that’s what I meant – and proves it Stoned I’m fucked up. Sooooo dumb
  I can’t explain how dumb I am right now
  so dumb write this down Maybe weed & alcohol is * not +
  I am sooooo dumb after weed 2026-04-09
• had an idea, forgotten in the process of writing this
  *** – Should post ALL this to blog before I delete anything **** 2026-056-8 – watching stupid wrestling, realising how stoned I am, and just felt like …. I had something

If everybody in the world were to rank (or BE ranked, different question) their life experience by “How good was that?” – where would I sit?

When I get stoned – wow, again, I thought I had something.

Blazed Kruse tried to play early stages of GTA 4. Got confused by some stuff. Confused by a GTA training episode! Kruse+weed = super-dumb.