Two weeks gone, and nothing to show for it.
Have tried to settle into a routine, but that got a little put out of shape when I broke stuff. My attempt at cluttering my already very small apartment with a home-gym failed when I proved too strong for my cheap equipment. But – rather than wait for replacement parts – I’ve gone and ordered new stuff. So soon I’ll have two rowing machines in my flat.
Living like a hermit seems to have driven me to just buy stuff. Need to get out of that. I’ve also added to my collection of diving equipment. ‘Cause I’m a diver. Just need to do some diving now, so I don’t look like some kind of poseur. As if.
And in other news – it seems like my lengthy explanation of why a fear of snakes is perfectly rational – has turned what was originally a healthy and slightly exaggerated fear of snakes into a full-blown phobia. Although still rational. Sort-of. I now find it very difficult to look at a webpage or television/movie screen which features a snake. A far cry from a couple of years ago, when I allowed one to slither over and around my arm and what-not – and actually considered buying it from the nice Venezualan man when he offered to sell it to me.
And this is why I’m refraining from further rants – regarding things like people walking slowly in the middle of footpaths, or erratically changing position on footpaths without checking behind them, or stopping at the top/bottom of stairs in order to extend their suitcase roller handles, or anything bloody else which would not be tolerated if driving – so why the hell is it when you’re a pedestrian? – because I’m afraid that if I put into writing all the reasoned arguments as to why these people are annoying – my already stronger-than-they-should-be views will evolve into murderous rages. My heartrate is already increasing at the thought of selfish/spatially-unaware pedestrians. I don’t need to build this up any more. Already – despite no longer needing to join rush-hour tubes or trains to/from work – I actually try to avoid the rush-hour of pedestrians. Not just because of the thoughtless ones – but just being part of that crowd of thousands and thousands of drones on their way to work. So very, very depressing. Just now – for perhaps the first time, I realise the allure of farming. Even being shat on by a cow starts to look good by comparison.